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Singing
Outside Heaven
Janice
Galloway writes: The Chamber Group of Scotland asked for a text
that would thread together the lives of four female composers
for a concert featuring some of their work. I thought that for
me to gloss the composers' lives was less interesting than what
the composers themselves had to say about how they approached
things. Since Janet Beat is the only one of the four who is not
yet a dead compose, I gleaned her words from direct interview
rather than from other sources: the rest comes from archived
letters, diaries, biographies. With this in place, it made sense
to add some quotations from contemporary philosophers, authors,
painters, anthropologists and historians to add some hint of
the composers' time and the general cultural assumptions that
surrounded (and surround) composers - all artistic creators -
who are female. The text in heavy type is mine: the rest is compilation
and patchwork. Domestic skills have their uses.This collaboration
was first staged at MAYFEST 1995 at the Cottier Theatre. The
text was read by Morag Hood and pieces - Clara Wieck Schumann's
Trio in G minor, Janet Beat's Five Projects for Joan, Lili Boulager's
Nocturne and Cortege, and Fanny Mendelssohn Hensel's Trio in
D minor - performed by the Chamber Group of Scotland.
Singing
Outside Heaven
  
"Why do they shut me out of Heaven?
Do I sing too loud?"
This is Poetry. The poet who wrote
those lines was born in Amherst, Massachusetts, 1830. The same
year, Fanny Hensel was 25, Clara Schumann 11. The year before,
Felix Mendelssohn conducted Bach's newly-rediscovered St Matthew
Passion in Berlin: the year after, Charles Darwin sailed
to South America on the Beagle to begin his study of human evolution
(later published as The Descent of Man) and Arthur Schopenhauer
began a study of feeble reasoning power (later published as On
Women).
The poet did not read either of those
books. The poet merely lived, read, worked and died in one place,
one hundred miles west of Boston, devoted to both parents until
their deaths. The poet was the contemporary of Nathaniel Hawthorne,
Henry Longfellow, Walt Whitman, Ralph Waldo Emerson, Herman Melville
and Mark Twain but preferred to read Helen Hunt Jackson, Harriet
Beecher Stowe, Lydia Maria Child, Rebecca Harding Davis, Francesca
Alexander and everything Elizabeth Barratt Browning, George Elliott
and the Brontës ever wrote. The poet wrote a total of 1775
poems of which only seven were published, the rest waiting till
after their author's death in 1886. It wasn't that the poet did
not desire publication, but the one critic approached on the
subject advised against the idea on the grounds the work was
too odd, too emotional, too candid. How could he put it? Too
female.
The poet did not seek publication
again but neither did she change her writing style or what she
had to say. The poet, Emily Dickinson, continued to work alone,
unheard and largely unencouraged during her lifetime. She is
now widely acknowledged as one of the greatest of all American
poets - by some one of the greatest who ever wrote in English.
1864
Why do they shut me out of Heaven?
Do I sing - too loud?
1836
It is a pleasure to me to find a public asking for my pieces
in London, for here I have none at all. Once a year, perhaps,
someone will copy a piece of mine or ask me to play something
special - certainly not oftener and my songs lie unheeded and
unknown...
1918
One can't help but think had
she been a man, such works as Faust and Helen would have
entered the standard repertory by now.
1995
Where I grew up there were very
few children, just me and a some little boys and little boys
often aren't keen to play with little girls. So I got used quite
early on to living in my own world and being self-sufficient
which is just as well.
1839
I once believed I had creative talent but I have given up
this idea; a woman must not wish to compose - there never was
one able to do it. Am I intended to be the one? It would be arrogant
to believe that. That was something with which my father tempted
me in earlier days but I soon became discouraged from believing
it. May Robert always create: that must always make me happy.
Music:
Trio in G minor; Clara Wieck Schumann
She didn't write it.
She wrote it but she shouldn't have.
She wrote it but what she wrote about doesn't count.
She wrote it but she only wrote one of it.
She wrote it but she isn't really an artist and it isn't really
art.
She wrote it but somebody must have helped her.
She wrote it but she's an anomaly.
She wrote it BUT...
There is a 19th Century Critical fallacy,
one we've all heard, that Art is not Life. Art is Truth, Beauty,
an Eternal Flame. But it is not Life. Life is what ordinary people
have. Artists are not ordinary people and neither are the people
who know best how to judge Art. They are the Critical Establishment.
They, Art and Artists exist in Higher Realms ie beyond the petty
restrictions that shape the lives of the rest of us. The Critical
Establishment, therefore, is Objective. It transcends the social
and political follies of its age. The Critical Establishment,
like Art, History, Philosophy and Nature, is classless, colourless,
sexless.
Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel, Philosopher,
1821:
Women are certainly capable of learning but they are not made
for the higher forms of science, such as philosophy and certain
types of artistic creativity; these require a universal ingredient.
Women may hit on good ideas and they may, of course, have taste
and elegance, but they lack a talent for the ideal.
Friedrich Nietzsche, philosopher, 1871:
Man...must create artificially, through the medium of technology
and symbols. In so doing, he creates relatively long-lasting,
eternal, transcendent objects, while woman creates only perishables
- human beings. When a woman becomes a scholar, it is usually
a sign there is something wrong with her sexual organs.
New York Evening Post critic, 1908:
This concert affirmed my conviction
that while women may some day vote, they will never learn to
compose anything worthwhile. All of them seem superficial when
they write music.
Thomas Beecham, conductor, 1961:
There are no women composers, never have been and possibly never
will be.
Jane Austen, writer, 1818:
A woman, especially if she have the misfortune of knowing
anything, should conceal it as best she can.
Let's state the obvious. Telling women not to create is a
long-standing tradition. We can't do it. We shouldn't do it.
We'll break our family's hearts if we do it. We'll be unlovable
and unhappy if we do it. We won't even be proper women.
Abraham Mendelssohn to his fifteen
year-old daughter, Fanny, 1820:
Music will perhaps become [your
brother's] profession whilst for you it must be only an ornament,
never the root of your being and doing. It does you credit you
have always shown yourself good and sensible in these matters,
and your joy at the praise he earns proves you might, in his
place, have merited approval. Remain true to these sentiments...
they are truly feminine and only what is truly feminine is an
ornament to your sex.
Alma Schindler, on her fiance, Gustav
Mahler, 1902:
Gustav considered the marriage
of Robert and Clara Schumann 'ridiculous' [and] sent me a long
letter with the demand I give up music and live for his alone.
Elizabeth Mann Borghese, writer, 1934:
At the age of eighteen, my father,
[Thomas Mann] sent me to a psychiatrist to help me recover from
an unhappy love affair. In the course of therapy, I told the
psychiatrist I had a desire to become a great musician."Women
do not become great musicians" the psychiatrist told me:
"You must choose between art and fulfillment, between music
and family life." But why? Why must I choose? No-one said
to Toscanini or Bach or my father that they must choose between
their art and their personal, family life, between it and fulfillment
as a man. Injustice everywhere.
Catherine Drinker Bowen, writer, 1934:
We don't want her to take music too seriously.We don't want her
to become too intense over something and warped and queer. Such
women don't... make good wives.
Waverley Root, polemicist, 1949:
In those rare individual cases where a woman approaches genius,
she also approaches masculinity.
Priscilla McLean, composer, 1982:
I was brought up to believe that
all composers were men, and that women, to work at all, should
take a temporary job like nursing or teaching until they inevitably
got married and had children. Then they were to quit and take
care of the home. Even hiring a babysitter so I could compose
seemed unnatural, even immoral.
Second obvious statement: belittlement,
prohibition and emotional blackmail are not the best bases for
an Artist to work from. Art is not easily produced even under
good social conditions. It is not easy for anyone. The creation
of Art demands time, patience, continuity, even selfishness.
It demands fortitude in the face of self-doubt. Most people who
create know that.
Constant toil is the law of Art...Honore
de Balzac, writer, 1849
Third obvious statement: time, silence,
self-confidence and an aptitude for selfishness are even more
difficult demands for some than for others.
Clara Schumann, 34th week of marriage,
1841.
Robert is feeling better again and, as I write this, is merry
as a lark...For 3 days he has been orchestrating his second orchestral
work...and already has new ideas for a third. The more diligently
my Robert pursues his art, however, the less I accomplish. Heaven
knows, there are always hindrances, and, small as our household
is, there is always this and that which robs me of time. I've
begun playing scales and exercises again for an hour so at least
I won't unlearn everything but when it comes to composing, there's
really nothing left any more. All poetry has abandoned me.
Anaïs Nin, writer, 1940
The aggressive act of creation,
the guilt for creating. I do not want to rival man, to steal
his thunder. I must protect him, not outshine him.
Sylvia Plath, poet, 1961
Perfection is terrible. It cannot
have children.
Marga Richter, composer, 1980
I didn't have commission coming
in and deadlines to meet while the kids were growing up. To tell
them go away, I'm busy - I don't think I could have done this.
Joseph Conrad, writer, 1900
For twenty months, I wrestled
with the Lord for my creation...mind and will and conscience
engaged to the full day after day...I suppose I must have eaten
the food put in front of me, taken drink, but I was never aware
of the even flow of daily life, made easy and noiseless for me
by a silent, watchful,tireless affection.
Helen Stimpson, writer and critic,
1981
The biggest drawback about being woman writer is not having a
wife.
Gloria Steinem, essayist, 1984
I have yet to hear a man ask for guidance on how to combine
marriage and a career.
Let's restate the obvious again.
The lives of men and women are different. The conditions under
which they produce art are logistically, emotionally, historically
different. The 19th Century Critical fallacy 's worst fault is
that it ignores the obvious.
Art is Life. Art is made of the stuff
of life and by people living real lives. Different lives prioritise
differently, they see different things. That there is only one
way of seeing and that one way is the Right Way is a terrible
untruth. A critical approach that denies the worth or even the
existence of thing s to which it is blind, reduces for all of
us what Art might be.
Now this wouldn't be a problem if
the 19th Century fallacy died with the 19th Century. But it has
left a remarkably pervasive legacy.
She wrote it but she shouldn't
have.
I can get no pleasure from serious writing
that lacks a strong male thrust. (Antony Burgess, writer 1975)
Miss Chaminade's is a work that is strong
and virile, too virile perhaps, and that is the reproach I would
be tempted to address to it. (New York Evening Post critic,
1908)
She wrote it but what she
wrote doesn't count.
All Mrs Shelley did was to provide a
passive reflection of some of the wild fantasies which were living
in the air around her. (Mario Praz, critic, on the author
of Frankenstein, 1951)
She was a private poet who wrote indefatigably
as some women cook or knit. Her gift for words and the cultural
predicament of her time drove her to poetry instead of antimacassars.(R
P Blackmur, critic, on Emily Dickinson,1937)
She wrote it but she only
wrote one of it.
[Publishing] necessitates a series of
works, one after the other. Fanny, as I know her, possesses neither
the calling nor the inclination for publication... (Felix
Mendelssohn, composer, 1836)
She wrote it but she isn't
really an artist and it isn't really art.
Salon music, lullabies, small
chamber pieces may possess great charm but the difficulty in
according serious consideration to so many women composers is
that they have attempted nothing large scale, nothing to show
the mastery (sic) of great forces which are the universally acknowledged
test of serious talent. (Franz Kerner, critic, 1980)
She wrote it but somebody must have helped her.
One tale was told that my works
were not done by myself; M Menageot painted my pictures and even
my portraits. Although so many people could naturally bear witness
to the contrary, this absurd report did not cease till I had
been received at the Royal Academy of Painting. (Elizabeth
Vigee-Lebrun, artist, 1788)
She wrote it but she's an anomaly.
It's not Mlle Lili Boulanger's [work
is] ... never marred by the pettiness or affectations that would
quickly have revealed the work of a woman. (Paul Martineau,
critic for Le Monde Musical, 1909)
She wrote it BUT.
And if all else fails, ignore the work,
the workers and the whole tradition - the most often deployed
tactic and the hardest to combat. (Joanna Russ, critic, 1985)
Here, I remind you, we are talking
of the women who come to create at all, who make it to print,
onto manuscript, onto canvas. There were many more for whom opportunities
never arose, whose careers went unnoticed.
It is hard to find the time, the energy,
the courage to take issue with judgments the judgments of those
we have been taught are the Great Thinkers of the Past, to wonder
if their vision may be partial. But partial, in more ways than
one, is what it often is. And most women who create know that.
Lady Mary Wortley Montague, letterist,
1753:
If there were a commonwealth of rational horses (as Dr Swift
has supposed) it would be an established maxim among them that
a mare could not be taught to pace.
Charlotte Brontë, writer, 1847:
You will, I know, keep measuring me by some standard you
deem becoming to my sex.
Ethel Smyth, composer, 1928:
This temptation to pretend that women are non-existent musically,
to ignore or damp down our little triumphs...is a microbe that
will flourish comfortably, though perhaps surreptitiously, in
the male organism till there are enough women composers for it
to die a natural death. Whereupon men will forget it ever existed.
Have they not already forgotten their frenzied opposition to
votes for women?
Dale Spender, critic, 1982
We can [and do] produce art,
we have been doing so for centuries, but it...is not visible
in our culture because we are not the judges of what is significant.
We are simply women producing work that is different to that
produced by men in a society where what men do is what counts.
It is important to notice. Even though
it's so ... well ... unwomanly to do so.
Flatter, deceive, use all the
wiles of your sex. Above all, amuse. But never, ever, complain.
There are whole fields, whole territories
of artistic creativity patiently waiting to be reread, reheard,
reappraised. The work of women who took the risk anyway. Who
did - who do - sing.
Music:
Janet Beat: Five Projects for Joan
Interval
Music:
Lili Boulager, Nocturnes; Cortège
These are Short Stories. Make the
connections between them yourself.
Story Number One. Lili Boulanger was born in
Paris in 1893. Her mother, Marie-Julie Hallinger, had been a
singer with the Opera Comique while her father, Ernest won the
Prix de Rome prize for composition in 1838. They were moneyed,
intellectual, open-minded towards different cultures and religions
besides their own Catholic faith. The possibilities these things
suggest were Lili's from birth.
Two key events that determined her
future as a composer happened early. The first, at the age of
two, was an attack of bronchial pneumonia so severe it wiped
out most of her immune system: the second, at the age of six,
was the unexpected death of her father. Lili had been his favourite.
The only thing the child could do with her grief was decide to
become a composer, to win the same prize he had won. Love of
family, specifically love of her father, instead of being a repressive
force thus became the very thing from which she could draw strength
to work. At the same time, Lili's infantile illness led Mme Boulanger
to keep her daughter under a wing of extreme protectiveness and
seclusion that would stay in place throughout her short life.
Isolation, nurturance, a clear goal, no possibility of marriage
or children. In this composer's story, these things are not unconnected.
Despite recurring illness, she entered
the Paris Conservatoire in 1912 and in 1913, was indeed the first
woman to win the prize her father had won 75 years earlier.
The papers went to town.
Emile Vuillermoz, critic, 1913:
Mlle Lili Boulanger has just triumphed in the last Prix de Rome
competition over all its male contestants and has carried off
the First Grand Prize with authority. Do not be fooled: this
deed stands on its own merits. Not only did the gallantry of
the judges not intervene to facilitate her victory but they were
stricter with this young girl of nineteen than with her competitors.
It required all the crushing weight of indisputable superiority
of this woman's work to triumph over the student's homework that
surrounded it. Truly it is a sad time for the sex that considers
itself strong. If the China dolls of music decide to vie with
him for official laurels, he is lost before he starts.
Paul Martineau, critic for Le Monde
Musical 1913:
Mlle Lili Boulanger already shows
a happy penchant for limpid melodies, an astonishing sense of
theatre, an admirable sense of ease in expressing passionate
sentiments and a healthy continuity of line, never marred by
the pettiness or affectations that would quickly have revealed
the work of a woman.
Bill Zakariasen, music critic, 1918:
Lili Boulanger's cantata is simply gorgeous, full of intoxicating
melody and shimmering late-romantic orchestration. One can't
help but think had she been a man, such works as Faust and
Helen would have entered the standard repertory by now.
Lili Boulanger died in 1819 at the age of 26 with her opera,
interrupted for the French war effort, unfinished. A sizable
proportion of her music has been lost, her letters are unobtainable.
The contemporary tributes to her work did not bring her to
greater notice. These days it is more usual to find conclusions
suggesting that Lili Boulanger's extraordinary capabilities are
simply embellishments after the fact.
Grace Reuben-Rabsen, psychologist,
1973:
Boulanger's talent is undeniable, but composition with text,
as many of hers are, demonstrate verbal ability (a typically
feminine gift) rather than true compositional ability.
Lili Boulanger is more isolated now
than she was during her lifetime.
Story Number Two. Janet Beat was born in 1937
in Streetly, Staffordshire and isn't dead yet. Even as a small
child, she knew she wanted to study and write music. Her father,
who ran an engineering business, was less enthusiastic.
I had big problems with my mother and
father, their having rows about my wanting to compose. They thought
creativity was a kind of madness and madness and divorce were
two things nice families didn't have anything to do with.
Not being allowed to study music till
later school years did, however, bring an unexpected bonus:
I only sat my university entrance requirements
late. That meant my tastes were not formed by teachers. I liked
contemporary stuff and non-European work and was left alone long
enough to think this was normal. I thought writing music was
a natural thing too because I hadn't been exposed to enough people
telling me otherwise. At university, of course, I was set right
and told I admired the wrong composers. In the final year, you
had to submit a portfolio of compositions or essays and I insisted
on compositions. The head of music said, "In that case,
you better write programme music, much better for you as a woman."
He seemed to think I'd find what he assumed to be the surerior
demands of abstract composition beyond me. So of course, I wrote
an Overture.
Other difficulties have been less
easy to turn to advantage:
I've never been fashionable. People have
been telling me I'm either ahead of musical trends or behind
them for as long as I can remember but there's no point worrying
about that. What's more difficult to deal with is isolation.
I suppose it keeps you from beocmeing institutionalised, but
it's still hard. There has been a lot of negativity, one way
or another. I try to turn some of it into fuel for my music but
sometimes I just get worn out by it, to be honest.
Childhood, however, still sustains:
The place I grew up there were very few
children, just me and a small group of little boys and little
boys often don't like to play with little girls. So I got used
quite early on to living in my own world and being self-sufficient
which is just as well, really.
Janet Beat is a pioneer of electronic
music composition in Britain who has worked in Scotland for over
22 years. She is not listed or indexed among the other contemporary
composers listed in John Purser's wide-ranging overview, Scotland's Music.
Story Number Three. Clara Josephine Wieck was
born in 1819 in Leipzig. Her mother, Marianne Tromlitz was a
singer and pianist, her father, Frederick Wieck, the owner of
a music business who also taught piano and singing. Their divorce
in 1824 left Clara, at the age of 5, in the automatic custody
of a man who saw bullying as a reasonable teaching technique:
she escaped the beatings regularly doled out to her half-brothers
on account of her superior playing. She performed in the Gewandhaus
at 9 and by the age of 18 was taking Europe by storm. All her
letters home from tour were dictated by her father: My poor father has been hoping I will be a better
child but finds I am just as lazy, careless, disorderly, stubborn,
disobedient etc as ever.
Robert Schumann, a pupil of her father's,
had been known to Clara since childhood. His attentions towards
her took on a new note in 1835. In 1840, after a lengthy legal
battle with her father who opposed her decision bitterly, the
already famous Clara Wieck married the relatively unknown young
composer. Their joint marriage diaries are a moving record of
the creative partnership. For all Robert's support of his wife's
talent, however, it shows familiar patterns.
Robert 11th week of marriage, 1840:
A quiet week which went by with
composing and much loving and kissing. My wife is love, kindness
and unpretentiousness itself...A small cycle of Kerner poems
is ready; they gave dear Clara pleasure as well as pain; since
she must purchase my love so often with silence and invisibility.
Well, that's the way it goes in marriages of artists and if they
love each other, that's always good enough.
Clara, 38th week of marriage, 1841:
My piano playing is falling behind. This always happens when
Robert is composing. There is not even one hour in the whole
day for myself. If only I don't fall too far behind. My score
reading has ceased too though I hope it won't be for long this
time. I can't do anything with my composing - it makes me want
to strike my own stupid head.
Robert, 1843
Clara has written a number of
small pieces which show a musical and tender invention that she
has never attained before. But to have children and a husband
who is always living in the realms of the imagination do not
go together with composing. She cannot work regularly and I am
often disturbed to think how many profound ideas are lost because
she cannot work them out. But Clara herself knows her main occupation
is as a mother and I believe she is happy in the circumstances
and would not want them changed.
Clara, 1847, on learning of her fifth
pregnancy:
What will become of my work?
Robert says children are blessings and he is right because without
children there is indeed no happiness, and so I have decided
to face the difficult time to come as cheerfully as possible.
Whether it will always be like this, I don't know.
After a year of two concert tours,
the Schumann festival in Zwickau, two years of nursing Robert
through worsening depression, the death of her youngest child
and the start of yet another pregnancy, she wrote: I am lazy because I am always terribly weak.
Clara Schumann bore eight children in the space of twelve
years whilst continuing to compose, play and give premieres of
her husband's works.
In 1854, after a suicide attempt brought
about by his deteriorating depressive state, Robert was hospitalised
in Bonn-Endenich and died there two years later. Refusing offers
of charity, Clara concertised, edited, taught and arranged music
to keep her family and her own artistic need alive. Her last
public concert, at the age of 72, and died in Frankfurt six years
later, listening to her son Ferdinand playing Robert Schumann's Intermezzi Op 4.
She never experienced dissuasion from
publication. With Clara Schumann, the difficulties of authorship
and the confidence for authorship came from subtler things. They
still do. History records her reductively. A proud woman who
raged at the directors of The Düsseldorf Municipal Concert
Society for giving her flowers instead of a fee after one sell-out
concert; a woman of strong views who, despite the adulation of
the times, dismissed Wagner (Rheingold
made me feel as if I were wading in a swamp the whole evening)
and Liszt (He is always very clever though tasteless at
times, as for his compositions, I can only call them horrible);
editor and champion of the works of Robert Schumann; the closest
friend Johannes Brahms ever had; Europe's most respected virtuosa,
recognised as the peer of Liszt, Mendelssohn, Thalberg and Rubinstein
in a concert career that lasted over 60 years; an inspirational
composer and teacher. She was also a composer and took great
joy in that fact. Nothing, she wrote after finishing the
6 songs of her Op 23, nothing surpasses creative activity,
even if only for those hours of self-forgetfulness when one breathes
solely in the world of sound.
For all that, she is still most often
visible - when she is visible at all in conventional music textbooks
published outside Germany - as the wife of a now famous husband:
still most often quoted - if she is quoted at all - as calling
her Trio, Op 7, "woman's
work, which lacks force and occasionally, invention."
When Brahms writes: By rights, I should have to inscribe
all my best melodies "really by Clara Schumann". I
have you to thank for more melodies than all the passages of
such things you take from me, we assume he is merely being
charming, indulging in some modest social politesse. When it
comes to Clara's remark, we assume she is merely being accurate.
Fanny Mendelssohn Bartholdy never needed to work
for her living. The daughter of one of the wealthiest bankers
in Europe, her social position made the possibility of a concert
career unthinkable. The eldest child of Abraham Mendelssohn and
Leah Salomon, Fanny was born in 1805 into a family who took closeness
between its members for granted. Even so, her bond with her brother,
Felix, was unusually intense. Both were precocious, composing
from an early age. They shared the same teachers and collaborated
on musical projects. At the age of 17, Fanny could still say:
Up to the present moment, I possess
his unbounded confidence. I have watched the progress of his
talent step by step and may say I have contributed to its development.
I have always been his only musical adviser and he never writes
down a thought before submitting it to my judgment.
Two years earlier, however, her father
had given her a warning:
What you wrote to me about your musical occupations with reference
to and in comparison with Felix was both rightly thought and
rightly expressed. Music will perhaps become his profession whilst
for you it must be only an ornament, never the root of your being
and doing.
He repeated it in 1828.
You must prepare more earnestly
and eagerly for your real calling, the only calling for a young
woman - I mean the state of being a housewife.
The lives of brother and sister were
about to seriously diverge. Felix went out into the world to
compose: Fanny married the Prussian court painter William Hensel.
One year later, in 1830, her first and only child was born. Throughout
the 1830's she led a flourishing salon, composing for
whatever forces that gathering made available to her. It was
only creative channel available to her. Through a lively, affectionate
correspondence to Felix, touring as a wild success in various
parts of Europe, she tried to retain the old closeness.
1834:
Thank you for the package
with St Paul. I don't like the change in the first melody
at all; why did you make it? Was it to avoid all the top a's?
The melody was lovely but I don't agree with the other changes
either...Bring the old version when you come and we'll argue
about it.
Passing years, however, noticeably
change her tone:
1836 to Felix:
I don't know exactly what Goethe means by the demonic influence...but
this much is clear: if it does exist, you exert it over me. I
believe that if you seriously suggested I become a good mathematician,
I wouldn't have any difficulty in doing so and I could just as
easily cease being a musician tomorrow if you thought I wasn't
good at it any longer.
1836 to Karl Klingemann, after an approach from a publisher:
I enclose two pianoforte pieces which I have written since
I came home from Düsseldorf. I leave it to you to say whether
they are worth presenting. But I must add that it is a pleasure
to me to find a public for my little pieces, for here I have
none at all. Once a year, perhaps, someone will copy a piece
of mine or ask me to play something special - and since [my sister]
has given up singing, my songs lie unheeded and unknown. If nobody
ever offers an opinion or takes the slightest interest in one's
productions, one loses in time not only all pleasure in them
but all power of judging their value. Felix...is so seldom here
and I am thrown back entirely on myself. But my own delight in
music and Hensel's sympathy keep me awake, and I cannot help
considering it a sign of talent I do not give it up though I
can get nobody to take an interest in my efforts.
1837 to her brother's new wife, Cecile:
When shall we see his new concerto?
It makes me sad to recall the time when I used to know his music
from it birth. It is different now. How strange he should have
had a wife these eight months I have never seen.
1837:
Dear Felix, I have not composed a single note this winter...I
scarcely remember what it feels like to write a song. But what
does it signify? I am not a hen to cackle over my own eggs and
not a soul dances to my piping.
With their father's death, however, Felix seemed to take on
the paternal role:
I hope I don't need to say that if she decides to publish
anything, I will help her all I can and alleviate any difficulties
arising from it. But I cannot persuade her to publish because
it is against my views and convictions. Fanny, as I know her,
possesses neither the inclination nor the calling for authorship.
She is too much a woman for that, as is proper, and looks after
her house...Publishing would only disturb her in these duties
and I cannot reconcile myself to it. To encourage her towards
something I don't believe to be right, I cannot do.
Though he was never directly obstructive,
Felix steadfastly refused the approval she needed, leaving her
to construct the prohibition, out of fear she lost his love,
for herself. In the 1840's, however, the friendship of Robert
von Keudell, a visitor to the salon, offered her so much support,
she found the courage, in 1846, to write:
Dear Felix, I don't expect you
to read this rubbish now, busy as you are, but I ought to tell
you something. Laugh at me or not as you wish. In a word, I'm
beginning to publish. I hope I won't disgrace all of you...and
I know you won't really mind. As you can see, I've proceeded
completely on my own to spare you any unpleasant moments...and
if it all goes to the bad I can have no-one to blame but myself
. Please don't think too badly of me.
The songs were a huge success and
she began work immediately on the Trio. It was performed on April
11th for her sister, Rebecka's birthday. It was her penultimate
work. Just over one year later, on 14th May 1847, Fanny Hensel
suffered a fatal stroke and died at the age of 42.
Sebastian Hensel, her son, in a book
about his family written in 1884, wrote more on the subject that
he perhaps knew:
William Hensel took a sketch
of the deceased, one of his best likenesses and the hardest task
he ever fulfilled. To him it was the loss of everything, for
his whole family life was destroyed...All business matters, the
whole management of the house, the superintendence of the property,
the education of their son, had been in her care, for in all
these things her husband was perfectly inexperienced, living
as he did wholly for his art.
Fanny Hensel wrote over 400 works,
most of which are still not available in print. She is buried
in the Church of the Holy Trinity in Berlin, next to her bother
who died only six months after she did. Tourists visiting the
grave often leave flowers - usually for Felix.
Music:
Fanny Mendelssohn Hensel: Trio in D minor
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