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Frankenstein by
Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley
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Letter 1
To Mrs. Saville, England
St. Petersburgh, Dec. 11th, 17-
You will rejoice to hear that no disaster
has accompanied the
commencement of an enterprise which you have regarded with such
evil
forebodings. I arrived here yesterday, and my first task is to
assure
my dear sister of my welfare and increasing confidence in the
success
of my undertaking.
I am already far north of London, and
as I walk in the streets of
Petersburgh, I feel a cold northern breeze play upon my cheeks,
which
braces my nerves and fills me with delight. Do you understand
this
feeling? This breeze, which has travelled from the regions towards
which I am advancing, gives me a foretaste of those icy climes.
Inspirited by this wind of promise, my daydreams become more
fervent
and vivid. I try in vain to be persuaded that the pole is the
seat of
frost and desolation; it ever presents itself to my imagination
as the
region of beauty and delight. There, Margaret, the sun is forever
visible, its broad disk just skirting the horizon and diffusing
a
perpetual splendour. There--for with your leave, my sister, I
will put
some trust in preceding navigators--there snow and frost are
banished;
and, sailing over a calm sea, we may be wafted to a land surpassing
in
wonders and in beauty every region hitherto discovered on the
habitable
globe. Its productions and features may be without example, as
the
phenomena of the heavenly bodies undoubtedly are in those undiscovered
solitudes. What may not be expected in a country of eternal light?
I
may there discover the wondrous power which attracts the needle
and may
regulate a thousand celestial observations that require only
this
voyage to render their seeming eccentricities consistent forever.
I
shall satiate my ardent curiosity with the sight of a part of
the world
never before visited, and may tread a land never before imprinted
by
the foot of man. These are my enticements, and they are sufficient
to
conquer all fear of danger or death and to induce me to commence
this
laborious voyage with the joy a child feels when he embarks in
a little
boat, with his holiday mates, on an expedition of discovery up
his
native river. But supposing all these conjectures to be false,
you
cannot contest the inestimable benefit which I shall confer on
all
mankind, to the last generation, by discovering a passage near
the pole
to those countries, to reach which at present so many months
are
requisite; or by ascertaining the secret of the magnet, which,
if at
all possible, can only be effected by an undertaking such as
mine.
These reflections have dispelled the
agitation with which I began my
letter, and I feel my heart glow with an enthusiasm which elevates
me
to heaven, for nothing contributes so much to tranquillize the
mind as
a steady purpose--a point on which the soul may fix its intellectual
eye. This expedition has been the favourite dream of my early
years. I
have read with ardour the accounts of the various voyages which
have
been made in the prospect of arriving at the North Pacific Ocean
through the seas which surround the pole. You may remember that
a
history of all the voyages made for purposes of discovery composed
the
whole of our good Uncle Thomas' library. My education was neglected,
yet I was passionately fond of reading. These volumes were my
study
day and night, and my familiarity with them increased that regret
which
I had felt, as a child, on learning that my father's dying injunction
had forbidden my uncle to allow me to embark in a seafaring life.
These visions faded when I perused, for
the first time, those poets
whose effusions entranced my soul and lifted it to heaven. I
also
became a poet and for one year lived in a paradise of my own
creation;
I imagined that I also might obtain a niche in the temple where
the
names of Homer and Shakespeare are consecrated. You are well
acquainted with my failure and how heavily I bore the disappointment.
But just at that time I inherited the fortune of my cousin, and
my
thoughts were turned into the channel of their earlier bent.
Six years have passed since I resolved
on my present undertaking. I
can, even now, remember the hour from which I dedicated myself
to this
great enterprise. I commenced by inuring my body to hardship.
I
accompanied the whale-fishers on several expeditions to the North
Sea;
I voluntarily endured cold, famine, thirst, and want of sleep;
I often
worked harder than the common sailors during the day and devoted
my
nights to the study of mathematics, the theory of medicine, and
those
branches of physical science from which a naval adventurer might
derive
the greatest practical advantage. Twice I actually hired myself
as an
under-mate in a Greenland whaler, and acquitted myself to admiration.
I
must own I felt a little proud when my captain offered me the
second
dignity in the vessel and entreated me to remain with the greatest
earnestness, so valuable did he consider my services. And now,
dear
Margaret, do I not deserve to accomplish some great purpose?
My life
might have been passed in ease and luxury, but I preferred glory
to
every enticement that wealth placed in my path. Oh, that some
encouraging voice would answer in the affirmative! My courage
and my
resolution is firm; but my hopes fluctuate, and my spirits are
often
depressed. I am about to proceed on a long and difficult voyage,
the
emergencies of which will demand all my fortitude: I am required
not
only to raise the spirits of others, but sometimes to sustain
my own,
when theirs are failing.
This is the most favourable period for
travelling in Russia. They fly
quickly over the snow in their sledges; the motion is pleasant,
and, in
my opinion, far more agreeable than that of an English stagecoach.
The
cold is not excessive, if you are wrapped in furs--a dress which
I have
already adopted, for there is a great difference between walking
the
deck and remaining seated motionless for hours, when no exercise
prevents the blood from actually freezing in your veins. I have
no
ambition to lose my life on the post-road between St. Petersburgh
and
Archangel. I shall depart for the latter town in a fortnight
or three
weeks; and my intention is to hire a ship there, which can easily
be
done by paying the insurance for the owner, and to engage as
many
sailors as I think necessary among those who are accustomed to
the
whale-fishing. I do not intend to sail until the month of June;
and
when shall I return? Ah, dear sister, how can I answer this question?
If I succeed, many, many months, perhaps years, will pass before
you
and I may meet. If I fail, you will see me again soon, or never.
Farewell, my dear, excellent Margaret. Heaven shower down blessings
on
you, and save me, that I may again and again testify my gratitude
for
all your love and kindness.
Your affectionate brother,
R. Walton
Letter 2
To Mrs. Saville, England
Archangel, 28th March, 17-
How slowly the time passes here, encompassed
as I am by frost and
snow! Yet a second step is taken towards my enterprise. I have
hired
a vessel and am occupied in collecting my sailors; those whom
I have
already engaged appear to be men on whom I can depend and are
certainly
possessed of dauntless courage.
But I have one want which I have never
yet been able to satisfy, and
the absence of the object of which I now feel as a most severe
evil, I
have no friend, Margaret: when I am glowing with the enthusiasm
of
success, there will be none to participate my joy; if I am assailed
by
disappointment, no one will endeavour to sustain me in dejection.
I
shall commit my thoughts to paper, it is true; but that is a
poor
medium for the communication of feeling. I desire the company
of a man
who could sympathize with me, whose eyes would reply to mine.
You may
deem me romantic, my dear sister, but I bitterly feel the want
of a
friend. I have no one near me, gentle yet courageous, possessed
of a
cultivated as well as of a capacious mind, whose tastes are like
my
own, to approve or amend my plans. How would such a friend repair
the
faults of your poor brother! I am too ardent in execution and
too
impatient of difficulties. But it is a still greater evil to
me that I
am self-educated: for the first fourteen years of my life I ran
wild
on a common and read nothing but our Uncle Thomas' books of voyages.
At
that age I became acquainted with the celebrated poets of our
own
country; but it was only when it had ceased to be in my power
to derive
its most important benefits from such a conviction that I perceived
the
necessity of becoming acquainted with more languages than that
of my
native country. Now I am twenty-eight and am in reality more
illiterate than many schoolboys of fifteen. It is true that I
have
thought more and that my daydreams are more extended and magnificent,
but they want (as the painters call it) KEEPING; and I greatly
need a
friend who would have sense enough not to despise me as romantic,
and
affection enough for me to endeavour to regulate my mind. Well,
these
are useless complaints; I shall certainly find no friend on the
wide
ocean, nor even here in Archangel, among merchants and seamen.
Yet
some feelings, unallied to the dross of human nature, beat even
in
these rugged bosoms. My lieutenant, for instance, is a man of
wonderful courage and enterprise; he is madly desirous of glory,
or
rather, to word my phrase more characteristically, of advancement
in
his profession. He is an Englishman, and in the midst of national
and
professional prejudices, unsoftened by cultivation, retains some
of the
noblest endowments of humanity. I first became acquainted with
him on
board a whale vessel; finding that he was unemployed in this
city, I
easily engaged him to assist in my enterprise. The master is
a person
of an excellent disposition and is remarkable in the ship for
his
gentleness and the mildness of his discipline. This circumstance,
added to his well-known integrity and dauntless courage, made
me very
desirous to engage him. A youth passed in solitude, my best years
spent under your gentle and feminine fosterage, has so refined
the
groundwork of my character that I cannot overcome an intense
distaste
to the usual brutality exercised on board ship: I have never
believed
it to be necessary, and when I heard of a mariner equally noted
for his
kindliness of heart and the respect and obedience paid to him
by his
crew, I felt myself peculiarly fortunate in being able to secure
his
services. I heard of him first in rather a romantic manner, from
a
lady who owes to him the happiness of her life. This, briefly,
is his
story. Some years ago he loved a young Russian lady of moderate
fortune, and having amassed a considerable sum in prize-money,
the
father of the girl consented to the match. He saw his mistress
once
before the destined ceremony; but she was bathed in tears, and
throwing
herself at his feet, entreated him to spare her, confessing at
the same
time that she loved another, but that he was poor, and that her
father
would never consent to the union. My generous friend reassured
the
suppliant, and on being informed of the name of her lover, instantly
abandoned his pursuit. He had already bought a farm with his
money, on
which he had designed to pass the remainder of his life; but
he
bestowed the whole on his rival, together with the remains of
his
prize-money to purchase stock, and then himself solicited the
young
woman's father to consent to her marriage with her lover. But
the old
man decidedly refused, thinking himself bound in honour to my
friend,
who, when he found the father inexorable, quitted his country,
nor
returned until he heard that his former mistress was married
according
to her inclinations. "What a noble fellow!" you will
exclaim. He is
so; but then he is wholly uneducated: he is as silent as a Turk,
and a
kind of ignorant carelessness attends him, which, while it renders
his
conduct the more astonishing, detracts from the interest and
sympathy
which otherwise he would command.
Yet do not suppose, because I complain
a little or because I can
conceive a consolation for my toils which I may never know, that
I am
wavering in my resolutions. Those are as fixed as fate, and my
voyage
is only now delayed until the weather shall permit my embarkation.
The
winter has been dreadfully severe, but the spring promises well,
and it
is considered as a remarkably early season, so that perhaps I
may sail
sooner than I expected. I shall do nothing rashly: you know me
sufficiently to confide in my prudence and considerateness whenever
the
safety of others is committed to my care.
I cannot describe to you my sensations
on the near prospect of my
undertaking. It is impossible to communicate to you a conception
of
the trembling sensation, half pleasurable and half fearful, with
which
I am preparing to depart. I am going to unexplored regions, to
"the
land of mist and snow," but I shall kill no albatross; therefore
do not
be alarmed for my safety or if I should come back to you as worn
and
woeful as the "Ancient Mariner." You will smile at
my allusion, but I
will disclose a secret. I have often attributed my attachment
to, my
passionate enthusiasm for, the dangerous mysteries of ocean to
that
production of the most imaginative of modern poets. There is
something
at work in my soul which I do not understand. I am practically
industrious--painstaking, a workman to execute with perseverance
and
labour--but besides this there is a love for the marvellous,
a belief
in the marvellous, intertwined in all my projects, which hurries
me out
of the common pathways of men, even to the wild sea and unvisited
regions I am about to explore. But to return to dearer considerations.
Shall I meet you again, after having traversed immense seas,
and
returned by the most southern cape of Africa or America? I dare
not
expect such success, yet I cannot bear to look on the reverse
of the
picture. Continue for the present to write to me by every
opportunity: I may receive your letters on some occasions when
I need
them most to support my spirits. I love you very tenderly. Remember
me with affection, should you never hear from me again.
Your affectionate brother,
Robert Walton
Letter 3
To Mrs. Saville, England
July 7th, 17-
My dear Sister,
I write a few lines in haste to say that I am safe--and well
advanced
on my voyage. This letter will reach England by a merchantman
now on
its homeward voyage from Archangel; more fortunate than I, who
may not
see my native land, perhaps, for many years. I am, however, in
good
spirits: my men are bold and apparently firm of purpose, nor
do the
floating sheets of ice that continually pass us, indicating the
dangers
of the region towards which we are advancing, appear to dismay
them. We
have already reached a very high latitude; but it is the height
of
summer, and although not so warm as in England, the southern
gales,
which blow us speedily towards those shores which I so ardently
desire
to attain, breathe a degree of renovating warmth which I had
not
expected.
No incidents have hitherto befallen us
that would make a figure in a
letter. One or two stiff gales and the springing of a leak are
accidents which experienced navigators scarcely remember to record,
and
I shall be well content if nothing worse happen to us during
our
voyage.
Adieu, my dear Margaret. Be assured that
for my own sake, as well as
yours, I will not rashly encounter danger. I will be cool,
persevering, and prudent.
But success SHALL crown my endeavours.
Wherefore not? Thus far I have
gone, tracing a secure way over the pathless seas, the very stars
themselves being witnesses and testimonies of my triumph. Why
not
still proceed over the untamed yet obedient element? What can
stop the
determined heart and resolved will of man?
My swelling heart involuntarily pours
itself out thus. But must
finish. Heaven bless my beloved sister!
R.W.
Letter 4
To Mrs. Saville, England
August 5th, 17-
So strange an accident has happened to
us that I cannot forbear
recording it, although it is very probable that you will see
me before
these papers can come into your possession.
Last Monday (July 31st) we were nearly
surrounded by ice, which closed
in the ship on all sides, scarcely leaving her the sea-room in
which
she floated. Our situation was somewhat dangerous, especially
as we
were compassed round by a very thick fog. We accordingly lay
to,
hoping that some change would take place in the atmosphere and
weather.
About two o'clock the mist cleared away,
and we beheld, stretched out
in every direction, vast and irregular plains of ice, which seemed
to
have no end. Some of my comrades groaned, and my own mind began
to
grow watchful with anxious thoughts, when a strange sight suddenly
attracted our attention and diverted our solicitude from our
own
situation. We perceived a low carriage, fixed on a sledge and
drawn by
dogs, pass on towards the north, at the distance of half a mile;
a
being which had the shape of a man, but apparently of gigantic
stature,
sat in the sledge and guided the dogs. We watched the rapid progress
of the traveller with our telescopes until he was lost among
the
distant inequalities of the ice. This appearance excited our
unqualified wonder. We were, as we believed, many hundred miles
from
any land; but this apparition seemed to denote that it was not,
in
reality, so distant as we had supposed. Shut in, however, by
ice, it
was impossible to follow his track, which we had observed with
the
greatest attention. About two hours after this occurrence we
heard the
ground sea, and before night the ice broke and freed our ship.
We,
however, lay to until the morning, fearing to encounter in the
dark
those large loose masses which float about after the breaking
up of the
ice. I profited of this time to rest for a few hours.
In the morning, however, as soon as it
was light, I went upon deck and
found all the sailors busy on one side of the vessel, apparently
talking to someone in the sea. It was, in fact, a sledge, like
that we
had seen before, which had drifted towards us in the night on
a large
fragment of ice. Only one dog remained alive; but there was a
human
being within it whom the sailors were persuading to enter the
vessel.
He was not, as the other traveller seemed to be, a savage inhabitant
of
some undiscovered island, but a European. When I appeared on
deck the
master said, "Here is our captain, and he will not allow
you to perish
on the open sea."
On perceiving me, the stranger addressed
me in English, although with a
foreign accent. "Before I come on board your vessel,"
said he, "will
you have the kindness to inform me whither you are bound?"
You may conceive my astonishment on hearing
such a question addressed
to me from a man on the brink of destruction and to whom I should
have
supposed that my vessel would have been a resource which he would
not
have exchanged for the most precious wealth the earth can afford.
I
replied, however, that we were on a voyage of discovery towards
the
northern pole.
Upon hearing this he appeared satisfied
and consented to come on board.
Good God! Margaret, if you had seen the man who thus capitulated
for
his safety, your surprise would have been boundless. His limbs
were
nearly frozen, and his body dreadfully emaciated by fatigue and
suffering. I never saw a man in so wretched a condition. We attempted
to carry him into the cabin, but as soon as he had quitted the
fresh
air he fainted. We accordingly brought him back to the deck and
restored him to animation by rubbing him with brandy and forcing
him to
swallow a small quantity. As soon as he showed signs of life
we
wrapped him up in blankets and placed him near the chimney of
the
kitchen stove. By slow degrees he recovered and ate a little
soup,
which restored him wonderfully.
Two days passed in this manner before
he was able to speak, and I often
feared that his sufferings had deprived him of understanding.
When he
had in some measure recovered, I removed him to my own cabin
and
attended on him as much as my duty would permit. I never saw
a more
interesting creature: his eyes have generally an expression of
wildness, and even madness, but there are moments when, if anyone
performs an act of kindness towards him or does him the most
trifling
service, his whole countenance is lighted up, as it were, with
a beam
of benevolence and sweetness that I never saw equalled. But he
is
generally melancholy and despairing, and sometimes he gnashes
his
teeth, as if impatient of the weight of woes that oppresses him.
When my guest was a little recovered
I had great trouble to keep off the
men, who wished to ask him a thousand questions; but I would
not allow
him to be tormented by their idle curiosity, in a state of body
and
mind whose restoration evidently depended upon entire repose.
Once,
however, the lieutenant asked why he had come so far upon the
ice in so
strange a vehicle.
His countenance instantly assumed an
aspect of the deepest gloom, and
he replied, "To seek one who fled from me."
"And did the man whom you pursued
travel in the same fashion?"
"Yes."
"Then I fancy we have seen him,
for the day before we picked you up we
saw some dogs drawing a sledge, with a man in it, across the
ice."
This aroused the stranger's attention,
and he asked a multitude of
questions concerning the route which the demon, as he called
him, had
pursued. Soon after, when he was alone with me, he said, "I
have,
doubtless, excited your curiosity, as well as that of these good
people; but you are too considerate to make inquiries."
"Certainly; it would indeed be very
impertinent and inhuman in me to
trouble you with any inquisitiveness of mine."
"And yet you rescued me from a strange
and perilous situation; you have
benevolently restored me to life."
Soon after this he inquired if I thought
that the breaking up of the
ice had destroyed the other sledge. I replied that I could not
answer
with any degree of certainty, for the ice had not broken until
near
midnight, and the traveller might have arrived at a place of
safety
before that time; but of this I could not judge. From this time
a new
spirit of life animated the decaying frame of the stranger. He
manifested the greatest eagerness to be upon deck to watch for
the
sledge which had before appeared; but I have persuaded him to
remain in
the cabin, for he is far too weak to sustain the rawness of the
atmosphere. I have promised that someone should watch for him
and give
him instant notice if any new object should appear in sight.
Such is my journal of what relates to
this strange occurrence up to the
present day. The stranger has gradually improved in health but
is very
silent and appears uneasy when anyone except myself enters his
cabin.
Yet his manners are so conciliating and gentle that the sailors
are all
interested in him, although they have had very little communication
with him. For my own part, I begin to love him as a brother,
and his
constant and deep grief fills me with sympathy and compassion.
He must
have been a noble creature in his better days, being even now
in wreck
so attractive and amiable. I said in one of my letters, my dear
Margaret, that I should find no friend on the wide ocean; yet
I have
found a man who, before his spirit had been broken by misery,
I should
have been happy to have possessed as the brother of my heart.
I shall continue my journal concerning
the stranger at intervals,
should I have any fresh incidents to record.
August 13th, 17-
My affection for my guest increases every
day. He excites at once my
admiration and my pity to an astonishing degree. How can I see
so
noble a creature destroyed by misery without feeling the most
poignant
grief? He is so gentle, yet so wise; his mind is so cultivated,
and
when he speaks, although his words are culled with the choicest
art,
yet they flow with rapidity and unparalleled eloquence. He is
now much
recovered from his illness and is continually on the deck, apparently
watching for the sledge that preceded his own. Yet, although
unhappy,
he is not so utterly occupied by his own misery but that he interests
himself deeply in the projects of others. He has frequently conversed
with me on mine, which I have communicated to him without disguise.
He
entered attentively into all my arguments in favour of my eventual
success and into every minute detail of the measures I had taken
to
secure it. I was easily led by the sympathy which he evinced
to use
the language of my heart, to give utterance to the burning ardour
of my
soul and to say, with all the fervour that warmed me, how gladly
I
would sacrifice my fortune, my existence, my every hope, to the
furtherance of my enterprise. One man's life or death were but
a small
price to pay for the acquirement of the knowledge which I sought,
for
the dominion I should acquire and transmit over the elemental
foes of
our race. As I spoke, a dark gloom spread over my listener's
countenance. At first I perceived that he tried to suppress his
emotion; he placed his hands before his eyes, and my voice quivered
and
failed me as I beheld tears trickle fast from between his fingers;
a
groan burst from his heaving breast. I paused; at length he spoke,
in
broken accents: "Unhappy man! Do you share my madness? Have
you
drunk also of the intoxicating draught? Hear me; let me reveal
my
tale, and you will dash the cup from your lips!"
Such words, you may imagine, strongly
excited my curiosity; but the
paroxysm of grief that had seized the stranger overcame his weakened
powers, and many hours of repose and tranquil conversation were
necessary to restore his composure. Having conquered the violence
of
his feelings, he appeared to despise himself for being the slave
of
passion; and quelling the dark tyranny of despair, he led me
again to
converse concerning myself personally. He asked me the history
of my
earlier years. The tale was quickly told, but it awakened various
trains of reflection. I spoke of my desire of finding a friend,
of my
thirst for a more intimate sympathy with a fellow mind than had
ever
fallen to my lot, and expressed my conviction that a man could
boast of
little happiness who did not enjoy this blessing. "I agree
with you,"
replied the stranger; "we are unfashioned creatures, but
half made up,
if one wiser, better, dearer than ourselves--such a friend ought
to
be--do not lend his aid to perfectionate our weak and faulty
natures. I
once had a friend, the most noble of human creatures, and am
entitled,
therefore, to judge respecting friendship. You have hope, and
the
world before you, and have no cause for despair. But I--I have
lost
everything and cannot begin life anew."
As he said this his countenance became
expressive of a calm, settled
grief that touched me to the heart. But he was silent and presently
retired to his cabin.
Even broken in spirit as he is, no one
can feel more deeply than he
does the beauties of nature. The starry sky, the sea, and every
sight
afforded by these wonderful regions seem still to have the power
of
elevating his soul from earth. Such a man has a double existence:
he
may suffer misery and be overwhelmed by disappointments, yet
when he
has retired into himself, he will be like a celestial spirit
that has a
halo around him, within whose circle no grief or folly ventures.
Will you smile at the enthusiasm I express
concerning this divine
wanderer? You would not if you saw him. You have been tutored
and
refined by books and retirement from the world, and you are therefore
somewhat fastidious; but this only renders you the more fit to
appreciate the extraordinary merits of this wonderful man. Sometimes
I
have endeavoured to discover what quality it is which he possesses
that
elevates him so immeasurably above any other person I ever knew.
I
believe it to be an intuitive discernment, a quick but never-failing
power of judgment, a penetration into the causes of things, unequalled
for clearness and precision; add to this a facility of expression
and a
voice whose varied intonations are soul-subduing music.
August 19, 17-
Yesterday the stranger said to me, "You
may easily perceive, Captain
Walton, that I have suffered great and unparalleled misfortunes.
I had
determined at one time that the memory of these evils should
die with
me, but you have won me to alter my determination. You seek for
knowledge and wisdom, as I once did; and I ardently hope that
the
gratification of your wishes may not be a serpent to sting you,
as mine
has been. I do not know that the relation of my disasters will
be
useful to you; yet, when I reflect that you are pursuing the
same
course, exposing yourself to the same dangers which have rendered
me
what I am, I imagine that you may deduce an apt moral from my
tale, one
that may direct you if you succeed in your undertaking and console
you
in case of failure. Prepare to hear of occurrences which are
usually
deemed marvellous. Were we among the tamer scenes of nature I
might
fear to encounter your unbelief, perhaps your ridicule; but many
things
will appear possible in these wild and mysterious regions which
would
provoke the laughter of those unacquainted with the ever- varied
powers
of nature; nor can I doubt but that my tale conveys in its series
internal evidence of the truth of the events of which it is composed."
You may easily imagine that I was much
gratified by the offered
communication, yet I could not endure that he should renew his
grief by
a recital of his misfortunes. I felt the greatest eagerness to
hear
the promised narrative, partly from curiosity and partly from
a strong
desire to ameliorate his fate if it were in my power. I expressed
these feelings in my answer.
"I thank you," he replied,
"for your sympathy, but it is useless; my
fate is nearly fulfilled. I wait but for one event, and then
I shall
repose in peace. I understand your feeling," continued he,
perceiving
that I wished to interrupt him; "but you are mistaken, my
friend, if
thus you will allow me to name you; nothing can alter my destiny;
listen to my history, and you will perceive how irrevocably it
is
determined."
He then told me that he would commence
his narrative the next day when
I should be at leisure. This promise drew from me the warmest
thanks.
I have resolved every night, when I am not imperatively occupied
by my
duties, to record, as nearly as possible in his own words, what
he has
related during the day. If I should be engaged, I will at least
make
notes. This manuscript will doubtless afford you the greatest
pleasure; but to me, who know him, and who hear it from his own
lips--with what interest and sympathy shall I read it in some
future
day! Even now, as I commence my task, his full- toned voice swells
in
my ears; his lustrous eyes dwell on me with all their melancholy
sweetness; I see his thin hand raised in animation, while the
lineaments of his face are irradiated by the soul within.
Strange and harrowing must be his story,
frightful the storm which
embraced the gallant vessel on its course and wrecked it--thus!
Chapter 1
I am by birth a Genevese, and my family
is one of the most
distinguished of that republic. My ancestors had been for many
years
counsellors and syndics, and my father had filled several public
situations with honour and reputation. He was respected by all
who
knew him for his integrity and indefatigable attention to public
business. He passed his younger days perpetually occupied by
the
affairs of his country; a variety of circumstances had prevented
his
marrying early, nor was it until the decline of life that he
became a
husband and the father of a family.
As the circumstances of his marriage
illustrate his character, I cannot
refrain from relating them. One of his most intimate friends
was a
merchant who, from a flourishing state, fell, through numerous
mischances, into poverty. This man, whose name was Beaufort,
was of a
proud and unbending disposition and could not bear to live in
poverty
and oblivion in the same country where he had formerly been
distinguished for his rank and magnificence. Having paid his
debts,
therefore, in the most honourable manner, he retreated with his
daughter to the town of Lucerne, where he lived unknown and in
wretchedness. My father loved Beaufort with the truest friendship
and
was deeply grieved by his retreat in these unfortunate circumstances.
He bitterly deplored the false pride which led his friend to
a conduct
so little worthy of the affection that united them. He lost no
time in
endeavouring to seek him out, with the hope of persuading him
to begin
the world again through his credit and assistance. Beaufort had
taken
effectual measures to conceal himself, and it was ten months
before my
father discovered his abode. Overjoyed at this discovery, he
hastened
to the house, which was situated in a mean street near the Reuss.
But
when he entered, misery and despair alone welcomed him. Beaufort
had
saved but a very small sum of money from the wreck of his fortunes,
but
it was sufficient to provide him with sustenance for some months,
and
in the meantime he hoped to procure some respectable employment
in a
merchant's house. The interval was, consequently, spent in inaction;
his grief only became more deep and rankling when he had leisure
for
reflection, and at length it took so fast hold of his mind that
at the
end of three months he lay on a bed of sickness, incapable of
any
exertion.
His daughter attended him with the greatest
tenderness, but she saw
with despair that their little fund was rapidly decreasing and
that
there was no other prospect of support. But Caroline Beaufort
possessed a mind of an uncommon mould, and her courage rose to
support
her in her adversity. She procured plain work; she plaited straw
and
by various means contrived to earn a pittance scarcely sufficient
to
support life.
Several months passed in this manner.
Her father grew worse; her time
was more entirely occupied in attending him; her means of subsistence
decreased; and in the tenth month her father died in her arms,
leaving
her an orphan and a beggar. This last blow overcame her, and
she knelt
by Beaufort's coffin weeping bitterly, when my father entered
the
chamber. He came like a protecting spirit to the poor girl, who
committed herself to his care; and after the interment of his
friend he
conducted her to Geneva and placed her under the protection of
a
relation. Two years after this event Caroline became his wife.
There was a considerable difference between
the ages of my parents, but
this circumstance seemed to unite them only closer in bonds of
devoted
affection. There was a sense of justice in my father's upright
mind
which rendered it necessary that he should approve highly to
love
strongly. Perhaps during former years he had suffered from the
late-discovered unworthiness of one beloved and so was disposed
to set
a greater value on tried worth. There was a show of gratitude
and
worship in his attachment to my mother, differing wholly from
the
doting fondness of age, for it was inspired by reverence for
her
virtues and a desire to be the means of, in some degree, recompensing
her for the sorrows she had endured, but which gave inexpressible
grace
to his behaviour to her. Everything was made to yield to her
wishes
and her convenience. He strove to shelter her, as a fair exotic
is
sheltered by the gardener, from every rougher wind and to surround
her
with all that could tend to excite pleasurable emotion in her
soft and
benevolent mind. Her health, and even the tranquillity of her
hitherto
constant spirit, had been shaken by what she had gone through.
During
the two years that had elapsed previous to their marriage my
father had
gradually relinquished all his public functions; and immediately
after
their union they sought the pleasant climate of Italy, and the
change
of scene and interest attendant on a tour through that land of
wonders,
as a restorative for her weakened frame.
From Italy they visited Germany and France.
I, their eldest child, was
born at Naples, and as an infant accompanied them in their rambles.
I
remained for several years their only child. Much as they were
attached to each other, they seemed to draw inexhaustible stores
of
affection from a very mine of love to bestow them upon me. My
mother's
tender caresses and my father's smile of benevolent pleasure
while
regarding me are my first recollections. I was their plaything
and
their idol, and something better--their child, the innocent and
helpless creature bestowed on them by heaven, whom to bring up
to good,
and whose future lot it was in their hands to direct to happiness
or
misery, according as they fulfilled their duties towards me.
With this
deep consciousness of what they owed towards the being to which
they
had given life, added to the active spirit of tenderness that
animated
both, it may be imagined that while during every hour of my infant
life
I received a lesson of patience, of charity, and of self-control,
I was
so guided by a silken cord that all seemed but one train of enjoyment
to me. For a long time I was their only care. My mother had much
desired to have a daughter, but I continued their single offspring.
When I was about five years old, while making an excursion beyond
the
frontiers of Italy, they passed a week on the shores of the Lake
of
Como. Their benevolent disposition often made them enter the
cottages
of the poor. This, to my mother, was more than a duty; it was
a
necessity, a passion--remembering what she had suffered, and
how she
had been relieved--for her to act in her turn the guardian angel
to the
afflicted. During one of their walks a poor cot in the foldings
of a
vale attracted their notice as being singularly disconsolate,
while the
number of half-clothed children gathered about it spoke of penury
in
its worst shape. One day, when my father had gone by himself
to Milan,
my mother, accompanied by me, visited this abode. She found a
peasant
and his wife, hard working, bent down by care and labour, distributing
a scanty meal to five hungry babes. Among these there was one
which
attracted my mother far above all the rest. She appeared of a
different stock. The four others were dark-eyed, hardy little
vagrants; this child was thin and very fair. Her hair was the
brightest living gold, and despite the poverty of her clothing,
seemed
to set a crown of distinction on her head. Her brow was clear
and
ample, her blue eyes cloudless, and her lips and the moulding
of her
face so expressive of sensibility and sweetness that none could
behold
her without looking on her as of a distinct species, a being
heaven-sent, and bearing a celestial stamp in all her features.
The
peasant woman, perceiving that my mother fixed eyes of wonder
and
admiration on this lovely girl, eagerly communicated her history.
She
was not her child, but the daughter of a Milanese nobleman. Her
mother
was a German and had died on giving her birth. The infant had
been
placed with these good people to nurse: they were better off
then.
They had not been long married, and their eldest child was but
just
born. The father of their charge was one of those Italians nursed
in
the memory of the antique glory of Italy--one among the schiavi
ognor
frementi, who exerted himself to obtain the liberty of his country.
He
became the victim of its weakness. Whether he had died or still
lingered in the dungeons of Austria was not known. His property
was
confiscated; his child became an orphan and a beggar. She continued
with her foster parents and bloomed in their rude abode, fairer
than a
garden rose among dark-leaved brambles. When my father returned
from
Milan, he found playing with me in the hall of our villa a child
fairer
than pictured cherub--a creature who seemed to shed radiance
from her
looks and whose form and motions were lighter than the chamois
of the
hills. The apparition was soon explained. With his permission
my
mother prevailed on her rustic guardians to yield their charge
to her.
They were fond of the sweet orphan. Her presence had seemed a
blessing
to them, but it would be unfair to her to keep her in poverty
and want
when Providence afforded her such powerful protection. They consulted
their village priest, and the result was that Elizabeth Lavenza
became
the inmate of my parents' house--my more than sister--the beautiful
and
adored companion of all my occupations and my pleasures.
Everyone loved Elizabeth. The passionate
and almost reverential
attachment with which all regarded her became, while I shared
it, my
pride and my delight. On the evening previous to her being brought
to
my home, my mother had said playfully, "I have a pretty
present for my
Victor--tomorrow he shall have it." And when, on the morrow,
she
presented Elizabeth to me as her promised gift, I, with childish
seriousness, interpreted her words literally and looked upon
Elizabeth
as mine--mine to protect, love, and cherish. All praises bestowed
on
her I received as made to a possession of my own. We called each
other
familiarly by the name of cousin. No word, no expression could
body
forth the kind of relation in which she stood to me--my more
than
sister, since till death she was to be mine only.
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